Taexalia
wild.life
Thoughts on the Week
Last week I felt like an unstoppable powerhouse and I enjoyed the ease of tapping into motivation and creativity and the almost total lack of depression. This week I have been noticing more of a fluctuation in my moods, and my creativity. I have not felt so on top of things and have had to be mindful to just let myself be instead of trying to push for something that just isn't going to happen. One thing I've noticed is the ease with which Outside Influences can throw me off track. I know ... read more
Baby Steps Are Little Leaps
I do not feel depressed today. This is the second time I have been able to write that this week and mean it. I understand that this may only be temporary reprieve since my External Stressor has been absent. I understand that all of the little changes I have been making may not entirely add up to beating depression by themselves if the External Stressor is missing from the experiment. But what it does show is that once I can eliminate the External Stressor completely I have no excuses. The ... read more
Rooting Around
I have not been writing much here for a couple of reasons and today I just want to say *whatever* to both those reasons and reclaim my space.I made this SoulCollage card some time ago and I notice that it is the only card I have in my Chakra/Companions Suit. This tells its own story about how disconnected I feel from my body, my energy, my creativity, the earth, how I want my life to be and on infinitum.I was doing some reading about Muladhara, the Root Chakra, today and one thing jumped out at ... read more
The Creepy Lurker
"But what shall we do with those inner beings who are quite mad and those who carry out destruction without thought? Even these must be given a place, though one in which they can be contained. One entity in particular, the most deceitful and most powerful fugitive in the psyche, requires our immediate consciousness and containment - and that one is the natural predator." ~ Clarissa Pinkola Estes Women Who Run With The WolvesI wonder why we often choose to remember the negative things people ... read more
When you feel down, go up
I awoke this morning feeling depressed and harbouring a sense of dread that today will resemble yesterday. The only positive thing about my waking was that I awoke by myself without any outside influences. I lay there dreading the idea of trying to write, or think, or paint, or do anything creative and being repeatedly disturbed by unpredictable, unwelcome interruptions.It is not good or healthy to wake up feeling like that, it doesn't exactly move the day forward, so just for today I put my ... read more